The city lights of Port Elizabeth or take my hand if you’re afraid
(for Joop Bersee and in memory of Rainer Maria Rilke)
All the bare necessities of writing
are found at an empty table. Figs and tea.
The flame of language is found there. Hot
ink. Writing. Prayer. People are found
milling in gardens in the summer heat drinking.
Eating good cheese and bread because
it is the season of eating good cheese
and bread. The writer hovers. He belongs.
She belongs but she is not part of the
group. She’s just an observer. Writers
watch through the window. Watching
the voices until there’s nothing but the heat.
Burning Midwest prairies. Cacti in desert-land.
Thirsty for thin black veils to cover the ocean-wind and sea
that aren’t found there. Only sky. Only
sky. Creeping up like sunlight. Everything
happened so fast. Oh, insane rapture’s
shadowboxing game! This honey in the
blood. This evil-sound of weeping. This smoke
kissing springtime courage and harsh
anguish silent all these years. Now there’s
all this expectation. Rewrites of heart-
ache on my body. Seduction theories.
I had solitude. I wanted disasters to be
kind to me. I was alive even in those
empty moments. I brought submission to the kitchen table.
The neon light is lovely here. The city
lights of Port Elizabeth a blessing. A man’s
heart is gold. A woman’s heart sacred
machine. Sad girl listen for the birdsong
in Tokyo. All I want is a library to keep
me warm on my voyage to China away
from this country of tragedy. The wedding
of leaf and darkness is closing in. You’ll
find monsters at the deep end. They’re
there at the edge of the city lights if you
look hard enough. You’ll find the auras
of soil and water. Dust and heat. The photograph of an artist in her hands.
Remember the tranquil daylight. Then finally
death. Don’t be frightened to close your eyes to it.
- Abigail George 2018
Pushcart Prize nominee for her fiction "Wash Away My Sins", Abigail George is a South African blogger, essayist, poet, short story writer and aspirant novelist. She is the recipient of writing grants from the National Arts Council in Johannesburg, the Centre for the Book in Cape Town and ECPACC in East London. She briefly studied film and television production at the Newtown Film and Television School in Johannesburg. Her literary work has been published in various anthologies, numerous times in print in South Africa and in e-zines based in Australia, Canada, India, Ireland, Finland, the UK, the United States, and across African in Nigeria and Istanbul, Turkey.